what happened to us?

yeah, i've definitely realized we have been talking lesser and lesser. 


i don't know why, but then it seems to get really awkward when i talk to you.


we have different study time now. and somehow i'm getting vibes form you that you think i am very free just because i'm studying in a poly. i'm so sorry, that's where you are wrong then. 


i don't know if our friendship is just gonna end right here. but i hope not. i know i lose my temper easily nowadays, but you do have to realize that i am going through a very big change in my life and its not easy for me. 


i don't have my secondary school friends with me in poly unlike th rest of my poly mates do. you guys should know that i lost them when i choose you guys over them last year. 


its really horrible to know that whenever i walk past any mayflowerian in poly, and i wave to them, they act as if they don't know me. its like wtf? 


yes, i know you guys are stressed because of your upcoming midyears and o/n levels. and its not as if i don't know how you feel cause i've been through it myself before. 


but really? you guys are th only one that's stressed? 


you don't say. i miss you guys more than anything else. i don't show it doesn't mean that i don't think about you guys every single day worrying on how are you coping for your o's and your n's.


you asked for help, and i immediately say okay, cause i'm freaking worried about you and i really want you to do well. so i will help whenever i can. im not beside you guys everyday now as we are in a different school. i can't ask you guys how's school everyday cause i do not have th time to do so. but nevertheless, i still worry and i care.


i really missed those times where in th morning i can see you and say hi and we talk, where i can hug you and where i can laugh with you guys. 


alot of things have happened ever since i got into poly. alot of things have changed as well. if there's one thing that i hope that it will not change, it would be th friendship within th 3 of us.


no matter what happens in school for you guys, you can always tell me. i'll always be here for you. even if you don't realize it.


love th both of you loads. miss you even more.


LiYing and Panda~




im sorry for my crappy attitude towards th both of you. i really am.