moving on to 2016~

oh hi~ its been awhile. like really a long while since i've blogged. so i guess all of th nonsense i haven't typed in 6 months shall come out now^^

Its been a very fulfilling year for me. From graduating from NP to finding a job at SGH followed by getting accepted into UQ. 

I have many people to thank. Especially those that have always been close to me. and those that has been supporting me quietly from th back. People come and go in my life. in everyone's life actually. but who are really th ones who actually stays? Those are th few that im really thankful for. I've learnt quite a number of things this year thanks to the transition from school to work and now i guess im ready to go back to school.

Graduating from NP has given me a huge edge out in th working world tbh. Knowing all th lecturers and my friends in there actually helped get me a job easily. Thankful for Junli for putting in good words for me^^ I find myself enjoying this job a lot. Working a full time job is definitely different from part time job as i have a whole lot more responsibility. It trains me to think of whether this is what i want to do in th future. 

Initially, when i graduated, i didnt have any plans of getting a degree due to th fact that i was at a complete lost of what i wanted to do. I knew it was science, but which direction of science? I've got completely no idea. I'm pretty lucky to have colleagues who's age is close to mine. Being th youngest in th company actually allows me to learn alot from th rest of them. They were th ones who helped me make my decision of getting a degree. Really grateful to all of them because they made me realize that without a degree, your pay really sucks and you cant go anywhere without it. From applying for the uni, to looking for accommodations, i really have to thank my direct mentor ShiMin for guiding me through it all slowly. She really has been a great help throughout this entire period of time, considering how she graduated from UQ itself. Help will come only if you ask for it >>>> like really. 


I'm at th age where everything is so fast paced. Make one mistake and it might just ruin my entire future. Talking to Liying has made me realize that im pretty glad that i plan my future before hand and that i always have to have a plan B just incase A fails. Goals are everything. They're th ones that pushes you forward and motivates you to do what you really want to do in th future. It isnt really wise to work just for th sake of money. You've probably got to have th passion to be working what you chose. Love is wise for her age even though she's one year younger than i am. But im pretty sure she has seen enough for her to know what she wants for her future and im glad to see her pursuing towards it even though it is really tough on her. I'm pretty sure she can succeed in whatever she's doing cause her level of commitment is way up there and im so proud of her! 


I'm left with a month before i fly over to Brisbane for further studies. I will admit that there are stuff that i am unwilling to let go off in SG as much as i dont like it here. But afterall, SG is where i was born and is where my home is. I really hope mum will be fine alone in SG. It has always been th two of us and now im leaving. Its worrying but i dont really have much of a choice. Seeing how my friends survived in Aussie, i guess i should do fine? but im someone who doesnt let go of things easily, so i wonder how my transit is going to be like when i head over! Grateful to have Esther, YanWen and Jolene with me even though im not that close to them. I guess its better than going there alone! Studying is never my thing, but i have friends to encourage and suffer with me. hehehe, kidding >< 



There's not gonna be a new year new me shyt. I'm just going to stay like the 5 year old me, as cheerful as i can be. There has been many things that went on in 2015 but i survived, we all did. And i think we all should be proud of it cause we came out alive and kicking. I'm glad to see all my friends pursuing for their future, i'll be joining yall soon! Moving on to th last part of this blog, im gna dedicate paragraphs of words to a few people who've made 2015 worthwhile! 



BB

Hi girl, im really missing you right here in SG. yeah, we skyped yesterday, but i think im having this BB withdrawal syndrome somehow i think. Somehow it feels really different even when skyping you, like i know you're there, but just too far away for me to be comfortable with it. I know we dont talk really often, cause i have the habit of forgetting to reply you, but you're one of those that i will always go to for advices, or when im really in a complete lost at what to do. Updating you through texts is never easy cause typing words out doesnt make sense sometimes (so annoying though). We'll skype more often i hope. and i really hope to give you good news regarding our topics yesterday? LIKE I DONT THINK I HAVE TH COURAGE STILL. but yea, bb, i love you still. HAHAHAHAHAHA. thats why you're number 1 on my dedication list. Have a good year in Sydney bb, i'll drop by if i can! <3


Love

Hi love. You've been such a great help this year. Especially when i want to rant matured stuff to you. Even though we uhm haven't been talking for th past two years and only started like a few months ago, but i guess its better than nothing. Thankyou for always understanding me, when it comes to planning for th future as well as money issues. You've grown up really well, so please continue this way^^ You've survived this far doing what you really wanted to do, sometimes i really wonder if i'll have th same level of commitment as you have for chasing my own passion. I promise i'll update you on my address in Aus, so please dont start stalking my roommates or sth >.> its creepy. Dont send your sister down to haunt me as well >.> thank you very much, but its not needed. You're starting school next year as well, so i do hope the both of us survive school and come back out alive! Please take care of your own body, EAT YOUR MEALS AND GET ENOUGH SLEEP. Lastly, I love you forever (even if we dont meet for 2 years). 



Panda~

YOU! ugh, i think i've nagged enough at you so i shant do it here again. Im pretty sure you're so sick of me nagging alr. which is like >:( SO PLEASE, HEED LOVE AND MY ADVICE OKAY. dont nua anymore. AND PLAN. im pretty sure you want a life back and not feel like a fool everyday and every night. YOU DONT EVEN GET UPDATES IN MY LIFE ALR. even love knows it earlier than you do. <.< judging you so badly right now. OMG. you have 2 years to survive without me. so please make wise choices in life. WISE OKAY WISE. DONT GO BANG WALL AGAIN. REALLY WASTE TIME WASTE ENERGY. I wont be in SG to nag at you, but i cant promise that i wont nag at you from aussie. If i even have th time and energy to do that. So take these two years to grow up well without me okay! Take care, and dont miss me too much. im sure you will. HAHAAHAH. 





There has been quite a few things that i didnt write down because its too personal. but i guess only those 3 above knows them. I'm sorry if i didnt share stuff with yall, but i've become pretty much a closed up person after many things that happened this year. Learning to listen more to others has become a norm instead of me just yakking away. I guess i'll have to give and take then! 


To all of my other friends out there, i hope you had a fulfilling year in 2015 and will continue to strive hard in 2016! There's no need for a new year new me. Just be yourself. And remember to stay happy!