title kinda explains it all. i've been so angst these few days along with a slight hint of happiness.
like i cant stand someone's attitude towards a certain problem we have. but then i dont want to say it out here. it consist of a person's life and death to cut th story short.
i've been through like 2 of my friends who tried to kill themselves and i had enough scares of my life to actually panic every single time i know someone who wants to do it.
and no, its not just to talk th person out of it for a single night and it will be fine and its definitely not normal even though they do it all th time.
i cant seem to get my thoughts straight when someone told me that and im really freaked out by their response. and what if im th one who was trying to do so. will th response be th same? or will it change? trying not to think so much, but then th response has definitely frightened me to a certain extent that i dont even know how to react now.
and there's my mum. wow, like fuck. she's controlling me from dating. again. whats new man whats new. esp when its with him. i dont understand why is she so against him.
but all i can say it fuck off mum. its my love life. im 18 and old enough to make decisions. im not letting whatever in sec 2 happen again? like for real this time. and if you want me to date th guy that i havent seen in 10 years despite him being my childhood friend, im sorry no. you can go date him if you're so desperate for him. im sticking to someone i've known for a period of time and someone i can trust.
i really dont understand why my family is so judgmental and im sure im not th only one who agrees with this.
Happiness^^ th reasons behind my smiles are all thanks to jun, izzy, trav, Xe and kmy.
izzy, jun and trav. well, they've been making me laugh and listening to my problems. well, and giving their oh so funny comments so that they can see me laugh and not be so stressed out by it. time spent with them is just pure relaxing and all jokes. no stress just laugh. and yeah, i think im happy when im with them.
Xe <3 ahhh, th best friend whom i've gotten back so recently. we've been sharing secrets and spazzing over sheeps. i think only she will understand but HAHA. th only girl, who can actually give me advice with a calm mind and let me think clearly and understand th situation better. i really dont get how she thinks so rationally when a situation arises. but im glad she does cause one of us has to be calm AND ITS DEFINITELY NOT ME. :P many thanks to her for analyzing my problems and successfully calming me down with her wisdom and words. like wow, its like my heart is at peace when i talk to her.
kmy=hugs. for real. okay. if you happen to see this then :D HAHA. you did ask for my blog url though. :P
time spent with him is bliss, like relaxing and th i dont have to give a fuck about anything shyt. and im not gonna say much here just that you make my day better when i see you every morning ^^
thankyou ^^
as what Trav says, there are somethings that we cant let go off even though we want to. and stuff that we can let go to make us a happier person. having seen her been through so much and becoming a happier person now, i guess i have alot to learn from her.
and i wonder when will i ever truely let go of th things i can and be a happier person?
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