tired of all th nonsense im facing

probably people who have known me for awhile would have told you i am a very cheerful girl who laughs at no matter what.
well, all i can say is that its already all in th past.

i can't bring myself to be th cheerful me, when im hurting now.
im no longer who i used to be last time. 
yeah, people change. 
this is reality.

but then im gonna tell all of you that i am fine.
even though in reality i am not. 
but then who cares?
apparently no one.
not even th closest friend that i have now.

apparently th only two who i can really talk to would be QW and BB girl.
even though they dont understand what i am going through,
they will listen patiently to what i am saying.
yes, i know i complain alot when it comes to friendship problems.
but then once you show disintrest in me talking about them, 
okay, i get th message. 
you dont wanna hear me talk about them.
i'll shut up. that's all im gonna do.

i dont get what is with her problem towards me.
probably because i am in th same class as her best friend?
but then that's not of my choice.
i cannot do anything about it.
so why hate me for it?
you're making my life miserable.
so be it. you dont want to be friends with me anymore.
that;s th signal i get from you.
okay, i get it. 
i'll ignore you from now onwards. if that's really what you want. 

ever since we came back from China you're like that.
okay, never mind. i'll tolerate.
until i cannot tolerate anymore,
which is now. 
so im gonna just let you go. 
its not my loss. its yours. 

and im gonna let fate go as well.
its gonna be really awkward if we continue like this.
well, i dont wanna end up fighting when we're having a gathering. 
so nope. im just gonna let them go. 
probably insiders as well.

i dont feel like i belong there anymore. 
i dont belong anywhere anyways.
so whats th big deal?
plus, half of you girls dont like me.
so whats th point of me staying there?

im tired of trying to hide all that i am feeling.
its too overwhelming.
im gonna let it all go.
and just concentrate on th friends that i really i know i can stick through with no matter what happens. 

so its time to say byebye. 
to everyone that hates me.
hate all you want. 
i dont wanna give a damn anymore.

and many thanks to QiaoWen and Bb girl for always listening to me. 
no matter how much i complain you girls never seem to stop me.