RANTS

enough is enough sometimes.
people should know my limit.

im not smart. like really.
i need a lot of time to study as compared to my girls.
and even if i take so much time to study,
my results are even worst as compared to them when they studied last minute.
i never complain asking why i spend so much time and yet my results aren't half as good as theirs.
cause i know i ain't as smart as them.
that's also th reason why i DPA into my course.

i wouldn't have gotten in to MBIO with my O's result.
that's why im grateful to my mum who forced me to apply for DPA.
im grateful to my mum for never giving up on me when she knew that my first sem's result was like crap.
she knows that im not as smart as th rest of my classmates.
i never have been th "smart ones"

but seriously, sometimes i tell people i need to study.
and i really mean study without any disturbance.
so can you not like come to me with unnecessary problems of yours that is not of priority now?
im sure its not important to you now as well as all of our exams are coming.
dont come complaining if you fail your finals cause you didnt study.
or maybe you wont? cause you're smart.
but im not, i need to STUDY. 
so leave me alone will you?
i dont want to fail my Finals.

i want to talk to someone about this.
im on th verge of breaking down knowing that no matter how much i study i wont be able to get results as good as my classmates.
i just dont have th brains to do so.
i hate this feeling. i really do.
people tell me to study harder. but they dont understand that there's a certain limit that someone can go.
seriously? if i were to study even harder, i think i'll end up crying every night.

your course might be easy to you.
but no, my course isnt.
every single module is examinable and we have to memorize dk how many fuck shyt of bio and chem stuffs.
you tell me its nothing, so why dont you come into my course and try what im doing now?
i swear it isn't nothing.
th only reason why i havent gave up its because i know that i like what im studying and im really interested in it. 
i dont complain doesn't mean that my course is relaxed.
i listen to you complain about your stuff, but that doesnt give you a right to jump to conclusion that my course is relaxed and easy as fuck cause its not.

SO IDIOTS, STOP JUMPING INTO CONCLUSIONS BEFORE I SEND YOU TO TH LAND OF CONCLUSIONS AND YOU GET BLOODY STUCK THERE.

can someone lend me their listening ear ugh. nevermind, im asking for too much. 
bye.