Lessons Learnt

well, from whatever that happened today, i can fairly well say that i learnt and gained many stuff from it. 


especially independence. finally today, i realize how lucky i am to have gain independence at such an early stage. at least im not depending on my parents to solve my problems from me. i do them myself.


from what happened today, i guess im really grateful to my mum for teaching me how to stand up for myself and being independent in whatever i do. that is that whenever i have any problems in school, instead of running crying to her and complaining to her, i solve th problems myself instead. even if it means going through hardships and many obstacles.


this is what i have been taught throughout th years of living with my mum, i guess its because i don't have my dad living with me and i don't have anyone to protect me like she does when she gets into trouble. ask me if im jealous, i would say yes most of th time. but for this instance, i can proudly say that im not. cause after this incident, i know i can prevent such things from happening again. and i never went complaining to my mum once about what happes during dance.


her mum said that i was some dance genius, being able to learn th dance just by looking at th videos. okay, im not a genius, knowing that there are many many other people out there which can dance even better than i do. but i know i can dance and learn fast cause i have th passion to dance. i have th motivation to dance and to learn every single steps properly till i perfect it. this is how much i love dancing as compared to her. i admit, i have dance background, but nevertheless, what about Dione and Clar who doesn't? look how far they have come and improved.


this is a competition, not something fun, but apparently she didn't get th message. since young, i've been taught that i have to fight and work hard for what i want. and it doesn't come free. well this is a very good example. wanting to get into th finals isn't as easy as abc.. all of us have to put in effort to get th dance right and th formation right as well. if one person is lagging, it will pull th entire performance of th group down. that's why i was so freaking pissed when she doesn't get th steps right, lest formation.


i was actually already very good keeping my temper down for th past few weeks of practice, but apparently someone doesn't appreciates it. and when i finally flared up today, she just left. well, this is a good example of someone who doesn't fight of what she wants and gives up so easily. i remembered my YOG days where Connie laoshi kept scolding all of us. but did we give up? no! its because we know that if we persevere, we will get th results we want in th end. and we did. th feeling of getting th results is just indescribable. it was really awesome, knowing that your hardwork paid off. this is just like YOG time, but in a smaller scale, but that doesn't mean that you can look down on it.


every competition is a chance for you to fight for what you really want. to prove that you can do it, to prove that you are really a dancer. a dancer doesn't mean that you have to be in an arts or dance school. a dancer means that you dance from your heart and never give up no matter what setbacks you have. everyone is a dancer, it is only whether you want to bring that side of you out or not. no one can say that you are not a dancer, you'll never know unless you really try to be one and bring th best out of yourself. 


so why give up just because i scolded you? if you really had th heart to dance, then you wouldn't have left, instead, you would have stayed to proved that you could by training even harder. i guess, i had too high expectation of you. i've learnt my lessons. but im not sure if you did. 


calling your mum to scold me doesn't work if you realize. yes, you can do that now and claim victory. but the have you realize that th outside working society is even worser than poly life? you think your boss would give a shyt if your mum were to call and complain? no! definitely not. i would ask you to grow up if i could, but i won't cause i haven't grown up myself yet so i don't have th rights to do so. but there's one thing im sure i can do it better than do- it is to persevere and not give up even if im being scolded. and to prove th person wrong instead.


so instead of blaming you for asking you to call your mum and scold me instead, i thank you, cause you gave me a valuable lesson learnt that i will never forget and i will make sure that i will not make th same mistake as you did.